heyy....

I havn posted in like...forever

but maybe right now is exactly when I should restart...


I shud ofcourse mention how in the past few weeks...a LOT of things changed for me

but I dun wanna talk about any of it right now...

everything is going wrong now...

to start with the least worse....my marks sucked...

I didn't top ANY exam...not one....I din even get the ICP award!...which goes to Rioko who isn't even in the same ICP class as me!!
I am not getting and overall 7 for any subject! not even 1...except chinese maybe...I am in ICP....btw....=(

AND....i get the most hardworking student prize....FOR CHINESE!!!....I wanna kill myself!!


My best friend....let's just say she has more important things in her life....umm....like prom and guys....oh AND alcohol....

I am going to India for 2 months...which means I can't see Sam or any of my friends for soooo long!


I feel so lost....

and my waveboard....is with Mr. Lloyd who is doing god-knows-what with it right now

it all comes down to...I am a loser...a sucker....


oh and....I am performing for grad...like the whole skool even wants to see and indian dance but I have to take part in more school activities...according to my parents...


thinking about it....maybe India isn't so bad....running away from this place...seems perfect to me....

watever....bye

I think I didn't attend ANY classes 2day...except first period math

Was mostly dancing or outside with Nina or walking around with Ria and Janica

Lunch was kinda nice tho...went to the canteen first...was nice..hehe
then was hanging out wid him n all....the s4 personal projects are REALLY cool!!
Oh and went to the gym and the saw The Jai Ho dance...really nice actually...they're doing it well...

I lost my green bad 2wice! got really scared...Ria had it once(i <3 her now) and I left it in class once..
class reminds me..
S2 PEARL LOOKS LIKE HELL....literally
wat have they done to it! AAAGGGGGGHHHHHH
I din feel like changing into my skool uniform so I just stayed in my Indian outfit...but it's also kinda annoying
when I entered my bus the teacher was like giving me a thumbs up which was SO embarrassing!

HAHA

I feel so so so happy...AGAIN..
tomorrow shud be an awesome day..other than the performance part..:)


Ria and Nina seem to be back to normal...YAY!!! :d


oh and....IDK...ahahah

I'm kinda bored...haha....BYE

GOODNIGHT :D

Today was SO depressing!!!

Had PE first, Nina's all sad now...ugh

Sam looks sad, UGH...I REALLY hope he's not mad at me...

Math is gonna kill me!!!



TOMORROW IS THE DRESS REHEARSAL!! agh!...I really dun wanna dress up n all!!! IT'S SO ANNOYING!

I hope everything gets back to normal tomorrow...

Annabelle called and we had this HUGE-ish talk abt people n stuff...it fells good...

Haven't had a proper conversation wid him...AT ALL...something comes in the way..ALWAYS
oh....my doggy is STILL the cutest thing EVER.

GOODNIGHT :)

Fill out this fun Be True Survey and then share it with your friends.

Look at the clock, what time is it?
6 13

What time did you wake up this morning?
6 40

What woke you up?
my alarm

Do you own a casette tape of Britney Spears?
no

Do you have a MySpace account?
no

Would you give your password to anyone else?
ya

How are you?
fine?

Any idea for today?
no

How about tomorrow?
i think so..dress rehearsal...UGH

Sunrise or sunset do you like the most?
sunset

What if you're a gay, who would be your gay partner?
OK?...i CANNOT be gay

What if you're a whale, female or male do you want to be?
idk!

What if you're a mom, how many children do you want to have?
I dk! AGH

And pssst, who would be your husband?
haha....dun knoe...YET

Do you like green?
no! ew!

Who is the third person to send you message in your inbox?
nina...hehe

Who is your idol?
dun have one

How is your Mum?
more like a friends...literally

It's about midnight, you're sleeping and suddenly your crush phones you, do you take the call?
YES!

Do you have any enemy?
yes

2007, your opinion?
umm...it was 2 years back...dat's it

2007, anything you miss in that year?
umm....MHS

2007 and 2008, make comparison.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

How often do you say bad words (like fuck, shit, damn etc)
umm...not 2 often...swearing's just not me

Would you have a jobless spouse?
never!

Do you like exams?
ok?....not really

Have you ever kiss your teacher?
NO!

Who did you hug today?
um...okay...Ria, Nina and Sarah and srry if I forgot someone

Any big event for today?
no

Science or Mathematics, which do you prefer?
science

History or Art, are they equally interesting?
no...history

When was the last time you write an essay?
umm....i dun remember..the last english assignment

What was it about?
about a stupid play

How many words did you write?
dun knoe

Do you wear braces?
yes...DUN REMIND ME

Do you have your own camera?
no

Your house is on fire, you can only take 3 things out with you. What would the 3 things be?
umm...idk...tell u if it ever happens

If you could be a cartoon character, who would you be?
umm....blossom! PPG...LOL

Do you use blankets at night?
OH totally...<3 those things


Who do you miss the most at this moment?
HIM

What do you want to do RIGHT NOW?
be wid HIM

TODAY WAS SO MUCH FUN!

Had a Chinese test in the morning...got 48 on 50...and it was onnnn....... COLOURS....ahaha....so so so easy!

after that I just had dance practise till lunch...well I kinda ditched the last half hour but I REALLY wanted to spend more time wid him so...

Anyway...during practise it was really awkward with like...the ppl watching...I tend to get really nervous...AGH

well...I was just really tired and my eyes were burning and all my friends tot I was crying?!?!?!...sigh

Had practice during CCA again but for such a short time...

anyway...Sam keeps obsessing about me cutting my nails?!...OKAY...so I cut them..LOL!

goodnight :D

Fill out this fun Out Of The Ordinary Survey and then share it with your friends.

Tell me about the last dream that you remember having?
umm...I think it was me and Ananya meeting again in the summer :D

Best hangover cure?
ok??

Favourite snack food?
UMMM....OMG...2 many!

Current location?
home sweet home in shanghai

Most missed memory?
of me n Ananya

First thought when waking up?
him...okay??

Fav movie quote?
umm....haha...it's a hindi one so nvm

Most annoying things?
way 2 many

Role model?
it used to be my cousin but she works way 2 hard to enjoy life

Biggest fears?
me n ananya will start hating eachother in a while! no~~~~~~`

Shoes you wore today?
My blue n white ones??

Generally, in life, what makes you happy?
I guess anything red

How well do you handle critiscm?
not 2 well actually =[

What would your friends be suprised to know about you?
umm....n i wud tell this why???

Sniff. What can you smell?
my dog...LOL

Biggest piece of goss you heard recently?
Ummm....that ****************** and ******************* r 2geder!!! WOW!
but they look awesome 2geder

Worried about anything?
yes....let's start wid him n continue to exams n so much more!

Last thing you brought?
U mean bought?? chocolate

Name three things you are truly thankful for?
ummm....3 things that I am truly thankful for

Three things you are looking forward to?
art expo, summer and umm.....**************

Last time you exercised?
umm...dun knoe dun care

Craving anything right now?
yes! milky ways...FROM HIM only tho